The earth was formless and void, and darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was moving over the surface of the waters. (Gen 1:2)

And so we begin.

<<sounds of an old, worn door creaking open… smell of burnt remains… visions of small piles of smoldering ashes>>

Welcome to the place of my rebirth. Again. You are standing in a scene of destruction, or should I say, deconstruction. Once again, I am in the process of being rebuilt from “nothing.” Everything I thought I knew about myself has gone up in flames. Most of the dreams I thought I wanted have faded as smoke into the night sky. So here I stand… strangely free.

This isn’t my first time launching something new, or reinventing myself, either. I’ve had a wide range of jobs, offices, and responsibilities in my life; usually in multiples and at the same time. I have what many like me view as both a blessing and a curse - potential. That certain something that unconsciously attracts people to me and inspires them to assume I can handle anything.

I’ve been (in alphabetical order):

  • Actor, Acting Coach/Teacher, and Voice-over Artist
  • Automotive Production Line Supervisor
  • Banquet server
  • Bartender
  • Bus driver/Preschool Teacher
  • Choreographer
  • National Convention Promotions Team Leader (with 10,000+ attendees)
  • Engineer (Automotive/Manufacturing and Energy, two different jobs)
  • Executive Assistant
  • Life Purpose & Career Coach
  • Makeup Artist
  • National Publications Chairperson (international non-profit organization)
  • Network Marketer
  • Receptionist
  • Spa & Image Consultant (Direct Sales)
  • Speaker & Trainer (from small groups to large conventions)
  • Various offices in local service, professional, and social groups
  • and much, much more…

 I’ve taken more ”leaps of faith” and gone through more relocations than I care to remember, all in the name of finding and fulfilling my destiny. I am a spiritual phoenix. (…which is either a really pretty way of saying I haven’t “found” myself yet, or a conviction that there’s method to this madness, and it’s all leading somewhere…)

So what’s different this time? Well, I’m no longer calling the shots - I’m running the plays. I’m daring to believe that I already am who He says I am, so I’m following the flow instead of trying to establish my own. I’m no longer striving to become great or “develop my potential.” He doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called. So, from this day forward, I’m living my life “in character” as the woman He created me to be…even when I don’t think or feel I can.

How? Well, that is a process and the essence of SpaEpicure.com. Rather than just tell you, I decided to show you by “walking it out” before your eyes. Some days I do better than others…and you’ll see it all here.

(By the way, anyone who tells you that all change is instant is not being real with you. I’m not saying that it can’t be, only that for most of us, retuning ourselves is a process whose length is determined by our level of resistance to it. Piano tuners will tell you that strings have to be conditioned in order to hold a new shape. Tuners stretch the strings into the new, desired position, then wait for them to try to draw back into their original place. The tuners patiently reset them, over and over, and gradually break down the strings’ resistance. Eventually, the strings maintain the new position, and the piano resonances beautifully.)

So though I look around at what appears to be chaos, I feel Him moving. Some would call it positive thinking, others intuition or even blind hope…but I know Him. My only job is to open my hands and release the resistance. Then, we’ll forever sing together in perfect harmony, and this phoenix will rise again…for good!